I JUST DONT GIVE A DAMN!
Apathy...thats what i am feeling today...Im just too tired to give a damn anymore! I just wanna let go...let you do what you wanna do and be what you wanna be...as rhet butler said to scarlet O'hara...FRANKLY MY DEAR I JUST DON'T GIVE A DAMN!...
August 29, 2007
Wednesday, August 29, 2007
Monday, August 13, 2007
Tired
Tired...
Kakapagod...making things work are the hardest thing to do...thats the lesson I learned today...
This is true, specially when the thing you wanted to work out is a relationship which is beyond mending...something slowly deteriorating but you are just to stuborn to see or to let go...its draining , frustrating and heart breaking...
Gosh, i wish i am strong enough to let go...but i am not...I am such coward sometimes...and I am suffering...hurting...dying...slowly...
I wish I am strong enough to move on, I wish I could let you go, I wish I could tell you...but i can't, I am too afraid... whenever we are together I rather celebrate the time I am with you...than tell you that I am dying inside, everytime you were gone, when we're apart, when you are not there to hold my hands...I am weak...and its my down fall... hope I could be honest with you, tell you my pain... but i am not...why can't you see it? Why? Can't you feel my pain? Am I such a good actress that you didn't see the tears behind my smile?
There are lot of things I wanted to tell you, do you know that I rather be with you? the things I told you about working abroad, It just a fluke... I didn't want to go... I wanted you to ask me not to...I was hoping you'll stop me, and tell me you wanted us to be together, that you are not going yo let me go...I wanted/needed you to need me, there beside you...but you didn't...and I didn't say a thing too...coz I am such a coward...
I wish I could hate you, I wish i really could...maybe then, I would be ready to move on...I wont be like a lovesick puppy waiting for an attention of his master...
...and I am hating my self! Would you help me?
August 13, 2007
Kakapagod...making things work are the hardest thing to do...thats the lesson I learned today...
This is true, specially when the thing you wanted to work out is a relationship which is beyond mending...something slowly deteriorating but you are just to stuborn to see or to let go...its draining , frustrating and heart breaking...
Gosh, i wish i am strong enough to let go...but i am not...I am such coward sometimes...and I am suffering...hurting...dying...slowly...
I wish I am strong enough to move on, I wish I could let you go, I wish I could tell you...but i can't, I am too afraid... whenever we are together I rather celebrate the time I am with you...than tell you that I am dying inside, everytime you were gone, when we're apart, when you are not there to hold my hands...I am weak...and its my down fall... hope I could be honest with you, tell you my pain... but i am not...why can't you see it? Why? Can't you feel my pain? Am I such a good actress that you didn't see the tears behind my smile?
There are lot of things I wanted to tell you, do you know that I rather be with you? the things I told you about working abroad, It just a fluke... I didn't want to go... I wanted you to ask me not to...I was hoping you'll stop me, and tell me you wanted us to be together, that you are not going yo let me go...I wanted/needed you to need me, there beside you...but you didn't...and I didn't say a thing too...coz I am such a coward...
I wish I could hate you, I wish i really could...maybe then, I would be ready to move on...I wont be like a lovesick puppy waiting for an attention of his master...
...and I am hating my self! Would you help me?
August 13, 2007
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