Why is it always me...

I was reaaaallly fissed of! To the highest level! And to my friend of all people!!!! Y -O-Y this always happened! Its the second time now...it is as if she really picking me for a fight!

2 in a row! Should have seen it happening but really i was trying hard not to noticed...but then it happened again...it really make me sad! and angry and really really feel bad!

My little own Wolf pack

i missed jacob, so much! I wish i didn't have to give him away..but four puppies is too much...but missed him..so.. :(

The Lettuce Couple

I think I'm an addict...really supper addicted to this couple. I'm a bit late(about a year and a month late)...but still can't help but love them... theya re so natural together. The're sweetness are not so obvious but..still its tickles my funny bones

Looking back...

Its been a while...

When I read what i have written then...I'd say wow! She's really in bad shape! I can't believed, that the person who wrote those blogs is me...she's seem so lost...sad, pathetic...

It seems like ages ago, but to think its been only a year or 2.....Let just say I am no longer that naive little girl, who believes in fairy tale, happily ever after and never, never land with Princess and white knights and love at first sight kind...but i don't know that girl anymore...the naive me. she's gone forever..

But i wont missed her...I am glad to know her..but I am more glad to see her grow and moved on. Able to see the world as what it is and whats its all about...

Foolish me?

Its been 3 months, I thought i was over him...i should have been...but why do i keep checking his Friendster account? Why would I still trying to look for his pictures...secretly? Foolishly...how funny human is...how funny i was and still is...i have successfully deceived all those people around me, even myself...that I dont care anymore, that I have moved on. That I am okey now, but the trueth it's all been a lie...I am much better actor than I thought...



After, well a number of times of foolishly checking and rechecking, I have finally hit "jackpot"...i saw a new pics of him smilling, looking happy. I felt so cold, i was angry...why are you smilling? Why? You shouldn't be smilling....why? You have no right to be happy after all of what you've done to me! How dare you to smile! While I was hurting inside! How I hate those pictures! How I hate you! and how I hate myself for still hurting....how foolish I am.

Friends...

Friends in your life are like pillars on your porch.Sometimes they hold you up,and sometimes they lean on you.Sometimes it is juz enugh to know that they are standing by""

Someone I knew before texted me last night...i was quite a surprise hearing from him again, coz as i've said, he've been gone for quite a while now...its been nice talking with him again. He is one of those people i become friends with even though we never really saw each other regularly...actually I've seen him last, I think around 2003...almost 4 years now. But we never really did lost contact...he will pop-up every now and then...update me about whats new with him and so on...

There are people that even though you haven't seen for a while but you knew they are there and you can always be sure who are happy to have known you...and vise versa. And I felt so blessed to have found people like them...so I don't think i should be sad this Christmas even though someone have rejected me....he is alone on that area...while I have lots who would welcome me open arms and accepted me for who I am and what I am... =)

December 13, 2007

Office



Last night, sobrang gulo na naman ng panaginip ko...nandun na naman sya...or he wasn't there but he was the topic of the discussion...



Ahhhhh, grabe, kailan ba ko nya ba ko papatahimikin? Sobrang pagdurusa na dinadanas ko...wala naman akong kasalanan nagawa sa kanya...my only fault was i loved too much...